I really enjoyed your questions because they gave me some time for introspection. Unfortunately, I'm late in posting your answers, and still I couldn't manage to fit them all into this one post.
This is Part 1.
Part 2 will be posted in a couple of days.
I also need to preface that some of you may find that my honesty may be a bit too explicit for your tastes. I've tried to mark those answers the best I could. I apologize in advance if I offend anyone.
I hope you enjoy!
Q: What are your plans for the future? Are you in school? What is your dream job?
A: My general plans for the future haven't really changed much considering my "sexual-orientation-crisis". I still want a good job, get married, start a family of my own, and return to live with my Father in Heaven. My motto has become "Progression"; be a better person today than I was yesterday.
School... dang I need to still register... I keep forgetting. I will have my associates at the end of this fall semester. The plan to finish my undergraduate is still in the air for now, but I'll figure that out soon. I would like to get my graduate degree from University of Washington in clinical psychology. Which leads to my dream job of being a psychologist with a focus in sexual abuse victims.
Now check back in in 5 years and lets see how close I came to these goals.
Q: Which is better looking your left eye brow or your right?
A: My right eye brow! For sure. Some may say that I'm bias because I'm right-handed, but I swear that it just photographs better than my left. Plus, when its time to wax, my right brow hurts less. It's like it wants to be good looking, so it loosens it follicles, and just gives away the wild and straggly hairs.
Q: I want to know if you taking steps to keep your prostate healthy. Too many old men are dying of prostate cancer and we know from long term studies that there's something young men can do to reduce their risk in later life. You do know what this is, don't you?
A: **EXPLICIT** Yes, I do know what this is. I assure you that I am taking these cautionary steps; as tedious as they may be. I am putting a LOT of hard work into it, very frequently. Todd checks often for me.
Health first you know ;)
Q:When did you know - I mean really know - that you are gay? Was there some experience or epiphany that cemented this fact into your mind? Oh, and what is your favorite clothing item? :)
A: **EXPLICIT** This is one of those questions that in order to be completely honest with you, my readers, I have to get a bit graphic. There are several instances in my life that I remember "seeing" my gayness emerge. I've been called gay since before I even knew what that meant. The moment that I truly remember first thinking "Oh, my gosh, I'm gay..." was also the first time I masturbated. I was 13, looking at pictures of naked girls, not for the first time, with friends because they wanted to... and I wanted friends. They refused to watch porn with men in it, so that no one could accuse them of being gay. After a while, they all left my house. It was me and the computer, all alone. I didn't like looking at girls, at all. I wasn't excited when I saw their bodies. All I wanted to do was write "WHORE" across those girls' foreheads.
I quickly justified that it would be okay to look at naked men, because I had a penis too. I was shocked at how my body reacted to these pictures. I had an erection so hard that the pressure began to make it ache. I started rubbing it to ease the aching, without removing my eyes from the computer screen.
I came.
In that moment, I saw a deep piece of me. Just as quickly, I rationalized it away.
This is Part 1.
Part 2 will be posted in a couple of days.
I also need to preface that some of you may find that my honesty may be a bit too explicit for your tastes. I've tried to mark those answers the best I could. I apologize in advance if I offend anyone.
I hope you enjoy!
Q: What are your plans for the future? Are you in school? What is your dream job?
A: My general plans for the future haven't really changed much considering my "sexual-orientation-crisis". I still want a good job, get married, start a family of my own, and return to live with my Father in Heaven. My motto has become "Progression"; be a better person today than I was yesterday.
School... dang I need to still register... I keep forgetting. I will have my associates at the end of this fall semester. The plan to finish my undergraduate is still in the air for now, but I'll figure that out soon. I would like to get my graduate degree from University of Washington in clinical psychology. Which leads to my dream job of being a psychologist with a focus in sexual abuse victims.
Now check back in in 5 years and lets see how close I came to these goals.
Q: Which is better looking your left eye brow or your right?
A: My right eye brow! For sure. Some may say that I'm bias because I'm right-handed, but I swear that it just photographs better than my left. Plus, when its time to wax, my right brow hurts less. It's like it wants to be good looking, so it loosens it follicles, and just gives away the wild and straggly hairs.
Q: I want to know if you taking steps to keep your prostate healthy. Too many old men are dying of prostate cancer and we know from long term studies that there's something young men can do to reduce their risk in later life. You do know what this is, don't you?
A: **EXPLICIT** Yes, I do know what this is. I assure you that I am taking these cautionary steps; as tedious as they may be. I am putting a LOT of hard work into it, very frequently. Todd checks often for me.
Health first you know ;)
Q:When did you know - I mean really know - that you are gay? Was there some experience or epiphany that cemented this fact into your mind? Oh, and what is your favorite clothing item? :)
A: **EXPLICIT** This is one of those questions that in order to be completely honest with you, my readers, I have to get a bit graphic. There are several instances in my life that I remember "seeing" my gayness emerge. I've been called gay since before I even knew what that meant. The moment that I truly remember first thinking "Oh, my gosh, I'm gay..." was also the first time I masturbated. I was 13, looking at pictures of naked girls, not for the first time, with friends because they wanted to... and I wanted friends. They refused to watch porn with men in it, so that no one could accuse them of being gay. After a while, they all left my house. It was me and the computer, all alone. I didn't like looking at girls, at all. I wasn't excited when I saw their bodies. All I wanted to do was write "WHORE" across those girls' foreheads.
I quickly justified that it would be okay to look at naked men, because I had a penis too. I was shocked at how my body reacted to these pictures. I had an erection so hard that the pressure began to make it ache. I started rubbing it to ease the aching, without removing my eyes from the computer screen.
I came.
In that moment, I saw a deep piece of me. Just as quickly, I rationalized it away.
NOW, let me clarify. Was it the porn and masturbation that made me gay? ABSOLUTELY NOT. This cannot account for the gay traits, attributes and feelings that I was aware of years before this story took place.
As for my favorite clothing item, I'd have to say jeans. I love a good pair of expensive denim jeans.
Q: What's your favorite: Movie, Musical, TV Show, Food? Favorite place for a holiday? Where in the world would you like to visit more then anywhere else? If you won the lottery what would you do with it? Oh! and since you suggested it... Whats your favorite colour?
Q: What's your favorite: Movie, Musical, TV Show, Food? Favorite place for a holiday? Where in the world would you like to visit more then anywhere else? If you won the lottery what would you do with it? Oh! and since you suggested it... Whats your favorite colour?
Movie: It changes all the time! I just finished Doubt and, WOW, I loved it
Musical: There are so many good ones that I haven't seen yet, but as of right now I'd have to go with Aida. I will always regret not seeing the original production because I fell in love with the music the week after I had the opportunity.
T.V. Show: Better Off Ted is the current winner, but I'll need a filler show now that it's season has ended.
Food: Mexican food is heaven sent. I think it is one of the things Christ taught the people in the Americas when he visited.
Getaway: Northern Arizona is only a few hours away, but provides a nice escape from the city and the hot weather.
Dream Destination: I would love to be able to slip away to Southern Europe for a few weeks. Some day...
Lottery Loot: I'd build my dream home, and invest the rest; set up a Living Trust and an Education Fund/Foundation. I'm boring, I know.
Color: Blues! However, red and black are my favorite color combination.
To be continued...
T.V. Show: Better Off Ted is the current winner, but I'll need a filler show now that it's season has ended.
Food: Mexican food is heaven sent. I think it is one of the things Christ taught the people in the Americas when he visited.
Getaway: Northern Arizona is only a few hours away, but provides a nice escape from the city and the hot weather.
Dream Destination: I would love to be able to slip away to Southern Europe for a few weeks. Some day...
Lottery Loot: I'd build my dream home, and invest the rest; set up a Living Trust and an Education Fund/Foundation. I'm boring, I know.
Color: Blues! However, red and black are my favorite color combination.
To be continued...
I LOVE your honesty. Can't wait for part II :)
ReplyDeleteDitto to Trevor..
ReplyDeleteAnd Doubt was great! Very intense film. Can't wait for more.
Good job. I was checking to see if you had goals...jk hee hee
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